I am physically exhausted, but from what I have no idea. The only notable thing I did today was four bags of laundry and some cleaning around the house which really isn’t that big a deal. It could be lack of sleep but that’s never bothered me before. My shoulders ache and my eyes are struggling to stay open. I yawn every few minutes. I’d sleep but if I even dare, I’m yelled at for not doing anything today. Doesn’t matter how I feel, it only depends on what I did.
Did I mention I have a headache throbbing with the force of an earthquake?
Maybe I’m sick. But if I admit that now, I won’t be able to go out to Jen's tomorrow.
“So you’re sick at home, but you’re perfectly fine at her house?”
I need to move out. Not because I’m unwanted. I understand I’ll always have a place at home. There’s no real financial strain, not like there would have been some odd years ago. It’s just that time. I don’t know what’s holding me back. I can’t even feel anything. It’s like, whenever I think about it I’m just…indifferent. This is just as bad as some mental block, probably even worse.
Of course I can never tell this to anyone. It’d just be over-dramatic. And who knows, it probably is. All I can say is that word that has cursed parent-kind for years and given teenagers the power to frustrate adults to no end: Whatever.
Did I mention I have a headache throbbing with the force of an earthquake?
Maybe I’m sick. But if I admit that now, I won’t be able to go out to Jen's tomorrow.
“So you’re sick at home, but you’re perfectly fine at her house?”
I need to move out. Not because I’m unwanted. I understand I’ll always have a place at home. There’s no real financial strain, not like there would have been some odd years ago. It’s just that time. I don’t know what’s holding me back. I can’t even feel anything. It’s like, whenever I think about it I’m just…indifferent. This is just as bad as some mental block, probably even worse.
Of course I can never tell this to anyone. It’d just be over-dramatic. And who knows, it probably is. All I can say is that word that has cursed parent-kind for years and given teenagers the power to frustrate adults to no end: Whatever.
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